I feel moved to share here a poem that poured itself out of deep aspirations and intentions that have impressed themselves on me during recent weeks. Sometimes I find that a very good way for me to help myself remember my aspirations and intentions is to write them down, allow them to assemble themselves into poem form. Perhaps it is also good to allow aspirations and intentions to be witnessed, to deepen their truth and help them (help the one who holds them!) to come into full bloom, or even to allow them to become light and warmth, bread and breath for some who witness them!
resolved: I am resolved: to honor my belovedness and that of others to delight in others’ joy as if it were mine because it is indeed part of mine to remember the light to envision clearly the life I aspire to be in to live with the mindful, peaceful energy I wish to invite, whether it manifests in others or the world around me or not. If conditions in them, in the world, are such for it to manifest, then it will, and if they are not such for it to manifest, then it will not. And it is nothing I have done or is in my ability to control, no matter my desire or hope. But I can inhabit the energy of peace myself and it is a protection. I am further resolved: to keep my spirit unfettered and unbittered to awaken to arise to emerge, from my fabulous fractal being to act, boldly, in conscientious confidence to water wholesome seeds and with great intention and loving discipline return unwholesome seeds to the deep storehouse of consciousness to let patterns of thought and belief that serve only ill to go to release hindrances of spirit to hold lightly and lovingly to anticipation to see the flame of possibilities in ashes I am yet further resolved: to believe in my kids’ wholeness and encourage their wellness, wisely to believe in my friends’ care for me, that they consider me beloved, and that I am a good friend in my autistically authentic way to let go of friendships and connections not meant for me to understand that many will not/do not understand me, and that is okay; they don’t have to. There is no universe-ordained contractual obligation that says they, or anyone, must, especially in order for me to be content or at peace. I release my bondage to any such expectation. to expect, however, to have my personhood respected and for people to understand that they don’t have to understand me in order to respect my personhood, my humanity, my dignity, to afford me the liberty to live in the peace in which they also wish to live, or to respect the potential of goodness in my character. to believe in the goodness of my character and to give it space and grace to bloom bountifully to be forgiving, for the health of my spirit; forgiving of pain I’ve caused myself, mistakes I’ve made; forgiving myself from carrying any burdens that anyone has attempted to place upon me. to remember defiance in the service of justice is not only okay, but blessed; may my defiance be mindful, fierce, and joyful to be repentant, to turn, return, retune to the harmony of the Earth to show kindness and shine kindness forth to live with intention and integrity to manifest abundance, for all, in all to live in the courage of my goodness the goodness of my courage the wholeness of my goodness and of my courage the wholeness of truth and the truth of my wholeness to live in the holy truth of Wholeness, in a whole Belovedness